How Cancer Taught Me Gratefulness
I learned abou t gratefulness when I was diagnosed with cancer. Not that I was grateful to have cancer! But it opened my eyes to what was good about my life, and to celebrate it, because who knew what the future held? I used to live only in the future. Living in the present seemed like a nice idea, but I could never do it. There was always that next project at work, or would my boyfriend ever marry me (he did), then dinner with my in-laws (with whom I did not get along). Let me get through that first, and then I'll worry about the present, I thought. But cancer's a funny thing. When you're told you have it, you kind of don't want to live in the future anymore, because who knows what it holds? I had a friend who was diagnosed with Stage 4 renal cancer when I was going through treatment. Friends and I would go sit with her when she was having chemo (I remember running hot water over her hands to try to get her veins to open up). But ...